# OCD + Polygraph 

**URL:** <https://discuss.clearancejobsblog.com/t/ocd-polygraph/22294>\
**Category:** SECURITY CLEARANCE Q&A\
**Created:** [November 1, 2026, 10:22am UTC](https://discuss.clearancejobsblog.com/t/ocd-polygraph/22294 "2026-11-01T10:22:21Z")\
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**Author:** ![Goluboi](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/discuss.clearancejobsblog.com/goluboi/32/2721_2.png) [@Goluboi](https://discuss.clearancejobsblog.com/u/Goluboi)\
**Post date:** [November 1, 2026, 10:22am UTC](https://discuss.clearancejobsblog.com/t/ocd-polygraph/22294/1 "2026-11-01T10:22:21Z")

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I’m going to get polygraphed for fullscope soon and I am terrified because I have OCD.

I previously got CI and it was _a mess_. I get caught into confession loops that are fueled by a desire to prove that I am a bad person/lying/anxiety/etc. I _exhausted_ my polygrapher to the point where we couldn’t finish when we took the whole time and I’m pretty sure she just passed me because she knew I had an undocumented mental illness. No amount of confessing will _ever_ make the loop close, I feel.

And now my personal hell is reliving itself (and I’m kind of angry my therapist didn’t prepare me for this _at all_ knowing I was eventually gonna go for this) and I am spiraling. I’m am _super_ triggered by the serious crime question making myself believing I am a criminal and fabricating memories. I haven’t slept more than 3 hours the past week. It’s my personal hell. And I also feel like I am going to be exploited for this too because that’s their job…

I remember she kept trying to help me close my loop by changing the wording of the question over…and over…and over..and over. And I know even if they add something like “Besides what your OCD is telling you”, I will still probably not do well because I am _sooo_ convinced it is real.

And I just don’t know what to do. And yes, I know I am having a _severe_ mental breakdown because the stress of this upcoming poly has completely destabilized my OCD. (And I cannot tell you how angry I am that my therapist did _nothing_ to prepare me for this level of destabilization).

What should I do? It’s for an agency this time, not a contractor. So I _know_ I won’t be given a pass just because my data is not clean at all just like last time. My only saving grace is last time was the same messy data, and also I remember she got kinda pissed that I answered yes to the question which she clearly wanted me to answer no to. And also that she probably noted that I had a _serious_ mental breakdown on her _multiple_ times. It was really bad.

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**Author:** ![sbusquirrel](https://sea2.discourse-cdn.com/flex016/user_avatar/discuss.clearancejobsblog.com/sbusquirrel/32/34_2.png) [@sbusquirrel](https://discuss.clearancejobsblog.com/u/sbusquirrel)\
**Post date:** [November 1, 2026, 10:29am UTC](https://discuss.clearancejobsblog.com/t/ocd-polygraph/22294/2 "2026-11-01T10:29:12Z")

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When you say it is for an agency do you mean a direct hire staff position? Usually they will give staff applicants more chances than contractors, if that’s any consolation.

Голубой? Голубой экран???