I am writing because I am terrified about the ramification of some poor decisions I made 3 years ago.
While prepping for an Army deployment to Iraq in JAN 2010, I was granted a TS clearance. During my deployment, I fell in love with a Dutch woman and while on leave to Holland, smoked pot one time. I was naïve to believe that I wasn’t committing a crime because where I did it, it was legal on a national level. (Additionally, I had intended to leave the Army upon my return from deployment in order to attend graduate school abroad.) Unfortunately, “life happens” and my involvement with the woman ended upon my return to the USA.
I ended up attending graduate school stateside and transferred to the Army National Guard. (As a result of that transfer, I kept my clearance).
During that first semester, roughly NOV 2011, I took Adderal three times to help concentrate/study. At the time, I had no idea that it in doing so, it constituted an illegal activity. After realizing my mistake, I never took the substance again.
The above mentioned drug activity is the ONLY drug activity I have participated in the past ten years. Since the fall of 2011, I have graduated from grad school, married a special agent with a triple letter agency, and have zero debt. I do not associate with drug users nor do I have any temptations to associate with and/or use drugs of any kind. I would be more than willing to take a polygraph and submit to any other pertinent screening measures to confirm the above.
I am still an actively serving member of the Army National Guard and am due for re-investigation of my security clearance this spring.
With that said, I have two questions that have kept me awake at night:
1. If I admit to the above drug use, will I have my current clearance automatically revoked by the Army National Guard?
2. Furthermore, if I am concurrently applying for a security clearance with a triple letter agency, should I admit to the above use? (Even if it means that I might end up losing my Army career)?
I am beside myself over what to do about this.