I know I screwed up, but bear with me. I recently applied and received a conditional offer for my first job out of college with the federal government - doesn’t require a security clearance, but considered “public trust”.
On the SF-85P I completed, I did not list any past drug use. This was not the truth. I used marijuana occasionally in college (no more than once or twice a month, as recently as three months ago) as well as LSD once with friends a few years ago. I lied because I was afraid that any recent drug use would lead to a denial.
The background check is in its early stages: I just submitted the e-QIP and my job isn’t scheduled to start for several weeks. I have felt awful about lying and want to come clean, but would admitting it at this point disqualify me anyway? Any advice - including telling me that I’m an idiot - is welcome.