I’m thoroughly confused and looking for clarification.
I took my first ever poly yesterday and failed. However, I was wholly honest and disclosed, prior to pre-test, ALL instances of drug use (2 times in my teens and ones in my early 20s). I’ve not used any drug since then.
I was still told I was concealing something post test.
Regarding criminal activity, I have none but disclosed on one occasion driving after what I felt like would have been over the limit had I been pulled over, but only had one drink. I was still told I was concealing something post test.
On the parts I felt I would have failed due to my nervousness, she mentioned nothing of. However, the parts I fully disclosed were the parts I was told I didn’t pass. I had a feeling this would happen due to her line of questioning pre-test. Exact verbiage used by the examiner was “I was trying to conceal” “you must have been thinking about something else” “indicators reflect you’re concealing something other than what was already discussed”.
She kept harping on the importance of honesty, “flushing everything out”, how adjudicators only go off of facts/data from the poly and not the additional context I disclosed to her and she didn’t want to leave it up to chance that an adjudicator would not grant me the TS/SCI poly due to the results… so basically fess up. I was trying not to be rude but told her “I don’t know what else you’d like for me to tell you. I know you are only doing your job. However, at this point I’ve disclosed everything to you, and have nothing else to tell you. I’m not admitting to something I never did.”
I felt like the examiner was purposefully baiting me, trying to push me into admitting something I hadn’t done. She offered me a second poly request for and stated it wasn’t guaranteed that I’d get one. She told me if I got one, next time to make sure I stay very focused, eat before and don’t be distracted by anything during the test. I didn’t feel I was while answering questions… but I didn’t eat or have my normal cup of coffee in which she probably heard the rumblings of my stomach
On the way out she was very cordial, a totally different person than in the room which further lead me to believe it was an act.
Any tips, input, opinions? Is it likely I won’t be grated due to the failure? Should I try it again or move on? I have a clearance currently. I don’t know any adjudicators to pick their brains about this. All input is appreciated.