A quick timeline, I received my first TS back in 1997. After getting out of the military 4 years later,I took a temp job and during that time, I made a huge mistake and looked at some adult images on a work pc. It was found out shortly after and I was let go from that job. I moved on and found a permanent job in another state. about 7 months after the incident I was questioned about the incident and made an even bigger decision and I lied about it. I hear nothing for about 3.5 years when I get a letter of denial. I ended up going to DOHA and while I was able to mitigate some of the concerns, I ended up losing my clearance. Fast forward 5 years and I re-applied to DOHA and was granted the ability to re-apply for my clearance, so I go through the entire BI and in 2011 Im again granted my clearance. Im now in my reinvestigation that I originally filled out in march of 2016. I had my first investigator investigation late last year and I just got a call from another investigator who has more questions.
Ive never had any kind of issue before or after this. Some of the things that frustrate me are the questions asked. What where you thinking when you did this. Why did you do this. I answer as honest as possible about an incident that happened almost 17 years ago, but I never feel the answer is good enough.
The anxiety this is causing is unreal. Its amazing how these two horrible decisions continue to plague me. If theres a question I have, its how come something thats already been mitigated several times, continues to be such a huge issue. I always expect it to come up, just not so much I guess. Its odd to think that If I make it through this re-investigation, ill be answering the same questions again in 5 years and 5 years after that, always wondering if I’m going to keep my job.